As I continue to re-acclimate after my time at Squam and the months of non-stop shows, teaching and projects begin to subside ~ I'm left with a new burst of clarity and an intense longing to get back to my life.
Getting back to my life means many things at the moment. One is to have my weekends again, or at least a couple of days a week where work is off limits. Another is to basically enjoy my home more than a place to sleep, snack, and clean up between projects. I want to experience the summer evenings outside before it becomes fall. I want to be more present with Sean and my co-workers. And finally I want to create for me, not that I don't do that already but I spent the better part of the last few months preparing for shows, for galleries...and I've realized that creating in this way is different.
While I'm incredibly honored for the invitations to show my work, I'm just going to go ahead and say it, I think after it is all said and done, I'm ready to return to the way I began. Funny isn't it? You have all of these ideas about where you want to go, what your career is supposed to look like, with a lot of expectations about how all of that is going to unfold; and in the end most of it turns out different than you planned and sometimes you realize that where you were going was really just a journey to return you to a place of appreciation for what you already have. But for this awareness alone, it is always worth the journey, because you wouldn't know if you didn't try something new.
And speaking of new, I've been preparing for my e-course beginning this Thursday ~ which I am very excited about!! In fact preparing for this e-course has been another gift for me to re-align with my original intent behind my creations, this business and my life as it now stands.
It's commonplace for me to have these bursts of clarity, I'd say pretty much every 4-6 months... but this time is slightly different. I'm officially on the other side of accomplishments and experiences, I imagined, hoped for and pursued for some time ~ and all I can say is it's an interesting place to be....and I think I'd like to dip my toe back into daily painting...